Been trying a way to put into understandable words my current experience. Perhaps you need not understand. Perhaps I just need to see the words myself.
When I encounter the need to change, several things will happen. First I will deny my current experience then I will find my home, as Liz Gilbert suggested, and seek the truth. Seems the quiet times always reveal the shame which creates the fear.
Through the whole process I take breaks and go to my safe place which is creating. Sometimes I do this to avoid the truth. This is usually the time when my body will start telling me to get back to doing the work. My knee aches which indicates I’m trying to carry a “load” that I can be free of. So I get back to to doing the shame work. Eventually I realize I’m feeling better emotionally and physically.
Will share the next experience soon…